New Name

When I see your face

Will I feel alone

When I hear your voice

Will it take me home

I wanna be the one who follows through on what I say I’m gonna do.

I wanna be a light that shines forth goodness.

I wanna stand in the place that has been forsaken

Oh won’t someone join this battle that I’ve found to fight 

Cause I don’t wannabe alone in this night. 

God,

Take this feeling and make it into something new

Take these thoughts and bring about your glory

For you are good 

I know that you love me 

You are there in the deepest place

But I am afraid that I will not be true 

So I need you to walk me through my deepest fears

My darkest days and give me a new name

Little You

Treat me right

That’s all I want from you

Do you see my heart 

It’s calling out to you

Love me do not use me

Hold me do not abuse me

For I am young and I am still learning who I am

The things you say and do 

May change me into a little you.

Sydelle Ann

Nestled so close it is almost as if she never exited the womb. 

Breathing air but relying still on body pressed to body to provide comfort

Between two loving arms--soft pillows yielding rest

Such gentle sleepy baby noises betray her

All knows that she is succumbing to the depths of sleep.

Looking at her peace

I am lovesick for my own place of warm safety.

Waiting

Waiting with hope or waiting just to wait

Which am I

What am I waiting for?

Here I am in your power

In my own I am nothing

I am waiting for God's illumination

Striving to see Who He Is and What He Desires Of Me

I hope that His revelation will be soon 

And 

That it will be understood by me

That I will hear clearly 

And

That I will be obedient

Help me not to run ahead of You

Help me not to try and do things on my own

Help me to be content to:

Wait on You

Milk and Honey

I am weary

Isaiah 40: 31 tells me: "But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."

Please renew my spirit and help me to mount up and press on. Forgive my weakness and please strengthen my faith. I miss my family.

Jeremiah 29:11-14 tells me: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart, I will be found by you, declares the LORD, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the LORD, and I will bring you back to the place which I sent you into exile."

I know, Jesus, that This Place isn't your exile land for me. I know that in fact it is my land of milk and honey and yet I so often feel lost and alone. Help me to cling to Exodus 3:7.

"I have certainly see the oppression of my people in Egypt. I have heart their cries of distress because of their harsh slave drivers. Yes, I am aware of their suffering." 

You delivered me to this land. Please help me to see it as a blessing. The blessing, calling, and privilege that it is.  Give me more grace and mercy when I rage against you and desire to have a comfortable easy life. For truly I desire to know you even more intimately and desire your will.

March 20, 2011

The bright coldness of the world startles and frightens me

The only place I can find warmth and peace is in Your arms

So hold me close to You, against Your very breast

Your arms surround my very being comforting my soul

Grace Grace glorious Grace

Giving me rest and calling my name
Daring me to step even closer
Yet my fears spook me away
I fear that my own darkness scatters all the desires far away

Come Lord Jesus to this day and take the shadows far away
I know that you desire for me to live in the light of your face 

Paige

I stopped sharing cuz you you stopped caring

In fact you leant toward mockery

I no longer choose to open my heart to mere ridicule

You were selfish and made foolish decisions

I thought I knew you but indeed you were not finished

When I read your pages I see how the plot twisted